Recovery?

Okay, first, some really good news. that is that my neck and shoulders have stopped hurting. I mean, out of the blue - bam - I woke up one morneing and they were better. That's pretty amazing. I'm not sure what God did to make that happen but I'm very grateful!!!!! So, that is a great victory in all of this.
Meanwhile, I have to admit that I really thought I would feel so very much better in overall energy and stamina and that it would continue in that "back to normal" fashion...but I guess not...I find that I still tire and need naps and that I'm more suceptible to illness. Case in point is this past week where I developed two infections one right after the other. So, I had two trips to the doctor. Well, today actually makes three. Currently the UTI that I have is still present after one course of antibiotics since we didn't know exactly which flora was causing it before (sent it for a lab) so as of today I'm now on a second antibiotic for that. I think more than anything, this has caused me to really consider and understand that I don't have the reserve that a "normal" person does. I really expected that I would be steadily improving whereas I feel more like I've actually gone backwards in the last two weeks. I took about a week and a half off from exercise and I think that helped and just have been sleeping when I need to. I think it's just more shocking really to realize that I'm not improving at the rate I had wanted to. Once again, God is showing me that I'm not in control and when my whole day goes awry with suddenly having to shedule dr visits and procuring meds etc. I get discouraged sometimes since I want to be done with this completely. I still have about five treatments left of herceptin and then I'll get the port out so that will be a nice milestone.
Ugh. enough. I'm sorry that I'm kind of bummed at the moment. It's more likely just momentary discouragement.
Other things.....
I've decided to take a math class which I am doing once a week for six hours on a Saturday for about 6-8 weeks. I know, I know most of you are thinking am I out of my mind? The answer is yes, and I need to get back in it, so this is why I'm taking the class. I just feel like I'm rusty with a few things. I also would like to expand on the knowledge I do have so taking an upper level course will help me with both objectives as well as be a test to see if I can handle doing something like that - even as a student - for six hours straight. So far I've been to one class and I think i did fine. I did about 2 1/2 hours of homework today so that I can stay on track. It's fun actually. I really enjoy learning and math is so very cool because it is the structure upon which God designs the universe. It's really amazing all of the different parts of mathematics as a whole. I just think it's cool.
I'm also working with a new physical therapist/trainer who is great. She's working with me on body mechanics as well as nutrition and I think she's already started to make a difference. I'm eating a nutritious, substantial breakfast and really trying to stick with what she has suggested. At first it seemed like a lot of food but the amazing thing is that I don't have the sweet cravings I did. To me that probably means I'm getting the nutrition that I need becuase I'm finally eating more completely. It's a lot more work, and I have to do a lot of meal prep but it's worth it. I probably have been needing to do this for a long time.

Patience, persistence, perseverence and with Christ's help improving.

Julie